Portland & Back

It is most regrettable you were unable to come up here during this short holiday that I had. Not to mention that my vacation time to visit you has been pushed back, no matter it is probably for the best as Curtis' Spring break will be coming up in march and that will be a greater time for all of us to hang out. So here I am in Portland, OR with two of my truly good friends: Henry & Curtis not to mention that Alex was around for a bit but didn't hang the whole night. This past nights experience has opened my eyes to a much needed redemption of understanding, that has demystified the whole "STRIP CLUB" thing. Where to begin, what can I say that will not be held against me by others or that will grant me a wrong label. To start, Strip Clubs in Portland are as common as AIR! Now, take a guy who is 30 years of age and about to enter his second Strip Club in his entire life. Now add the facts of predrinking and that I smoked more WEED in one night then most beginning teenagers will ever see in one sitting amongst friends. Onward to the Strip Clubs it was, we must have hit 5 or 6 Clubs in one night. Pretty damn impressive until I saw how much I spent on drinking in one night, Not a healthy choice for any bank account. So damn the women were HOT! Damn it was very upclose and personal but I was so HIGH and Buzz from all the ALKY that it wouldn't have mattered cause the equipment was not going to work no matter what I saw or felt. HAPPY IS ALL I KNEW FILLED WITH ECHOING LAUGHTER. I think the weird is part is when my two buds got so desperate for some action with the ladies, that we ended up in some really bad (SHIT HOLE) club and they ended up doing some lines of coke with this stripper we were talking to. (Now I will say this, I did not partake in the snorting of the coke, I was offered but chose not to. Saying no is not always a bad thing, and as for me there are limits to what I'll do. Sex in a public place fine, flashing ppl great but when it comes to drugs and other altering materials that exist in the world so will never be for me and this is such a moment that has made me proud I stuck to my beliefs) She (the stripper) seem to wonder off pretty quick after that all happened, needless to say no one got anything out of the night except for me :D
I woke this day feeling like a Crack Rabbit on Viagra, I probably could have produced 7 or 8 great Porn scenes in several hours. Wow it truly is something to experience full stimulation of the sex drive and not be able to have your brain function until all the Weed & Alcohol exit your body. It does suck to feel this way at the very moment but WTF you gonna do about it right? I told those two ya who coke heads (HA HA.. I TEASE) that next time just to put their money together and get a working girl instead of wasting money on that crap that did nothing for any of them. One vice versus another should weigh heavy as to what is beneficial to my friends. It just comes as no surprise what riding the tides of the freestyle life is like, this just further proves the things in life that scare me and why I have to take all things in stride. Plus, with most situations we come to learn what we find ugly in life and will remember never to do again. No fear of judgement, as we all have a moment we have lived free and let others do there things as you did your own. These are things that feed on my fear of people and life. Stepping back and grasping the things you do, then see for what they are? Maybe a fun moment sure, but actions that shall never be relived; as for what kind of friends you keep and the things in life that they do? Let the shadows of there makings and doings in life be what they are, as it is there choice in life to do or live in harmful ways not mine and so I leave with the understanding that people will choose to do what it is they find fit for themselves. As for me, no matter how I looked at any of the nights adventures, she was always there in the back of my mind. An I will mention that I just got off the phone with her before writing all this. How I long to be where you are Nikki, life is fun at times but you haunt my waking days and dreams that I wish for nothing more then to see you. Time to drive home, food first then back to Tacoma!